So Freakin’ Tired

I should sleep. I should have gone to bed two hours ago, but I can’t.

This is not insomnia, at least not in the way I see it. In my mind, insomnia is when you’re lying in bed but can’t sleep.

I just can’t get myself to shut down for the night.

The world seems to work better when I’m rested, and right now I can hardly keep my eyes open. Still, I always feel like there are little things that need my attention, small projects I could finish.

I often say that I stay up like this because I want some time to get things done after Betty goes to bed. However, if Betty and Jennifer are away on a trip, I stay up even later.

I often think it’s the fault of electric light, that if it were darker I’d have the impulse to go to bed sooner.

How about you? Do you have trouble getting to bed at night?


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Paul Gude writes small books, makes stupid music, draws silly pictures, and does weird things on stage.
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2 Responses to So Freakin’ Tired

  1. Nolly says:

    I do this all the time; in favt, I am currently doing this. For me, I think it’s partly a semi-feral caffeine cycle. (It’s not really _vicious_…) I’m tired, so I drink too much caffeine/caffeine too late, so I’m not sleepy, so I stay up too late, but I still have to get up, so I’m tired, so I drink caffeine, repeat ad nauseam.

    But I think there’s more to it. Some of it’s inertia — I don’t like changing from whatever I’m doing to the getting ready for bed routine.

    None of the things I’ve tried work consistently for long — setting an alarm to play sleepy music and put the computer to sleep works if I’m just faffing around, but not if I’m doing something actually interesting, for instance.

  2. tomorrow's the math exam :D says:

    i simply think that sleeping is a waste of time

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